Monthly Archives: April 2009

Disposable People

Disposable People

“Disposable People” – Steve Malakowsky (Outcast Press , 2009)

There is no such thing as a disposable person. It is a description based on perception. This book is dedicated to those who live on the far edges of society. Some are easily catagorized. We call them homeless, addicted, unwanted, broken, ignored, strange, frightening and avoidable. Others blend in, but their hearts are shattered. Their lives are twisted wrecks, but they have become experts at hiding the damage.

My words will describe people I have met. Outcasts have stories. Hopefully, the more you know the more you will care. The photos on the back cover are copies of picture that Anna hands out on the street. The bright imagery represents hope, dreams and un-fullfilled destinies. These are lost elements in many lives.

My intents is that your eyes will see the shadow dwellers in your world and that your hearts will search for ways to help them. My prayer is that if you have been labelled as disposable, you will begin to grasp this important truth…your life has value.

Steve Malakowsky, outcastpress, 2009

Genetic Testing – Final Result

Test results from: 7/19/2007 (yeah 2 years ago, when I was in the
hospital!) Yes I got today, 4/23/2009!

“The sample is heterozygous for factor V Leiden, R506Q polymorphism.”

Heterozygous, means I got the clotting defect from ONE parent, but
not both. The test does NOT say which parent.

“The facor V Leiden mutation is the most common genetic risk factor
for thrombosis (blood clot) and accounts for greater then 90% of
cases with APC (tumour suppressor gene) resistance. Inherited
thrombosis due to APC resistance is considered autosomal (any
chromosome, other then sex chromosome) dominant disease;
heterozygote carriers of the factor V Leiden polymorphism (shape)
have an increased risk of thrombosis (blood clots) of 5 to 10 fold, and
homozygotes have a 50-100 fold increase risk. Estimated penetrance
(frequency) for homozygotes is close to 80 % with a reduced
penetrance for heterozygotes (approximately 12-20 %)”

Translation: I inherited from ONE parent (heterozygous) not both. I am only 5 fold increase instead of 50 fold.

All told – while not great news, it could have been much worse.

I am NOT responsible for the outcome.


Columbine — A Decade After

from: San Diego Reader [circa 4/20/1999]

“I tried to tell people that the [Columbine] gunmen were not gothic,”says Pastor Dave, “and most of the true goths I know were bright, talented, young people who could never perpetrate something like this. But after all was said and done, it’s a moot point. This tragedy has put the gothic sub-culture in the public eye in a way that not even a year of [Marilyn] Manson’s ‘Anti-Christ Superstar’ tour could…all things dark and black will now be labeled gothic. Anyone singing sad songs in a black dress will automatically become gothic.”

Sanctuary’s cyber-minister “Wayno” Guerrini witnessed this damning misconception in action while watching a TV news report on KGTV Channel 10, focusing on local goth culture. Dismayed by the portrayal of goths as obsessed with evil and hate, he e-mailed Bill Griffith, the station’s morning and midday news anchor.

Griffith has been with KGTV since 1976, hosting the long-running daily show “Inside San Diego” as well as the station’s “Charger Report” which, for ten years, followed ABC’s “Monday Night Football” coverage. Wayno’s initial letter and the subsequent volley of e-mail is posted at, samples of which include the following:

Cyber Minister Wayno: “Dear Bill, I work with Pastor Dave Hart, whom your station interviewed last night. That same interview re-ran on the 11am news, which you anchor, today. You made a statement today which is totally false: You said that most goths are into Adolph Hitler. You could not be farther from the truth! Most of these kids are into Philosophers like Nietzche (sp), not Hitler. Please, don’t start a witch hunt where none is warranted. As Dave said last night, goths are into self-inflicted pain, not into inflicting pain on others.”

Bill Griffith’s response: “Thanks much for the e-mail. I respect your viewpoint – and Pastor Hart’s – as coming from someone who works with ‘goths,’ but I plead with you not to excuse or underestimate the deeply disturbed nature of this movement. It takes only a cursory look through the internet under ‘goth’ to see the kind of Satanic, nihilistic, anti-Christian credo the ‘goth’ culture adheres to. Just because some goths don’t follow every tenet doesn’t mean we should ignore their world view.”

Sanctuary’s ministry stresses that the world view of Goth culture is anything but anti-Christian. The gothic lifestyle values the importance and value of individuality. Passivity and tolerance of others are treasured ideals, and vegetarianism, volunteerism and humanitarianism are common in practice. Goth kids have even cultivated an image of themselves as a “chosen people,” special in the eyes of a contemporary, post-Millenium God.

This concept is encouraged and reinforced by Pastor Dave. “I believe that the Christian gothic/industrial community has been called for [in] such times as these,” he preaches on the Sanctuary website. “Who else is more prepared to deal with dark days and painful times? You are a tribe of poet/priests and poet/warriors called to fight the darkness you know so well. Like Stryder and the Northern Rangers in ‘The Lord of the Rings,’ you will be used to fight the shadows of fear and terror in the dark forests and murky swamps which lie outside the boundaries of the land of the Hobbits…be confident in your unique calling. You are a chosen tribe, a holy nation of priests.”

“Be ready to die,” says Pastor Dave. “To your old life, to your dreams, to your glory, to your sin-nature, to this world, to this body. Remember it’s all going to burn. Remember that our suffering will not last forever.”

Infallible Proofs of The Resurrection

Purple Iris

This has been a week long event — I took my notes from 14 years ago (sermon given 35 years ago) and ocr’d them (gocr) – I wanted a text version of this, because before this, the only existing copy was on paper.

He is risen!


Infallible Proofs of
The Resurrection
March, 24,1995

Excerpted notes from a sermon given, Easter, 1974 by Melvin W. Steward, of La Mesa First Assembly of God.

I. Introduction
A. Read I Corinthians l Cor 1 5:1-23

B. The former treatise have I made, O Theophilus, of all that
Jesus began both to do and teach,

Until the day in which he was taken up, after that He
through the Holy Ghost had given commandments unto the
apostles whom he had chosen:

To whom also he shewed himself alive after his passion by
many infallible proofs, being seen of them forty days, and
speaking of the Things pertaining to the kingdom of God: (ACTS 1 : 1 _3 KJV)

C. Tekmerion — connotes a demonstrable proof.

1. All of Christianity hinges on the one doctrine
of the Resurrection. AIl the sermons preached in
the early church (book of Acts) were on the
resurrection. The resurrection therefore is an
ESSENTIAL DOCTRINE of the church. That is,
if you take it away from Christianity, Christianity
falls apart.

D. No resurrection would have openly declared Jesus as a liar.

E. Proofs:

1. Logic

2. Scripture

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3. History

4. Experience

II. Proof of Logic

A. Resurrection occurred by either human means or supernatural

B. If by humans:

1. Enemies or friends.

a. Enemies-

1. Would have spread the very thing
they were trying to prevent!

“Sir,” they said, “we remember that while he was still alive that
deceiver said, “After three days I will rise again.

So give the order for the tomb to be made secure until the third day.
Otherwise, his disciples may come and steal the body and tell the people
that he has been raised from the dead. This last deception will be worse
than the first.”

“Take a guard,” Pilate answered. “Go, make the tomb as secure as you know

So they went and made the tomb secure by putting a seal on the stone and
posting the guard. (MATT 27:63-66 NIV)

(2) What would have been the response
of the Church, if they could have
produced the body of Christ? They
would have silenced the church forever.

(3) It is interesting to note: The silence of
the Jews, is as significant as the
testimony or the Christian!

(4) So logically, it wasn’t the enemies of

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b. Friends of Christ

(1) They were the very ones most
surprised by the resurrection!

(2) John 20:1-1 6 records the account of
the resurrection.

(3) Luke 24: 1 3 :49 (EM on vs 43) records
the two that ere traveling on the road
to Emmaus. They didn’t get it! They
didn’t understand. He had to show them.

(4) No, it could NOT have been the friends of
Jesus — They were most surprised.

III. Scripture Proofs

A. What does the bible itself say about his the resurrection?

1. Psalm 16:1 O because you will not abandon me to the grave,
nor will you let your Holy One see decay. (NIV)

2. Jonah – Matt 1 2 :40 for as Jonah was three days and three
nights in the belly of a huge fish, so the Son of Man
will be three days and three nights in the heart
of the earth. (NIV)

3. Then the Jews demanded of him, “What miraculous sign can you
show us to prove your authority to do all this?

“Jesus answered them ; “Destroy this temple, and I will raise
it again in three days.’

The Jews replied, “It has taken forty-six years to build this
temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?”

But the temple he had spoken of was his body.

After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what
he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the

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words that Jesus had spoken. (John 2 : 1 7-22 NIV)

B. God keeps His promises. Just like he said he would. On time.
Because He;s always on time.

IV. Proof by History.

A. If you would not as yet accept the Bible as being
historically accurate, than lets examine what other extra
-biblical sources say about the resurrection of Jesus
Christ. Now, I won’t ask you to turn to your bible for this.
Instead we will examine the works of others.

1. Flavious Joeshephus — noted Jewish historian of the
first century in his book entitled “Antiquities of the
Jews” records; Book 18, Chapter 3, paragraphs 1-5.
Paragraph 3 is the Testimonium Flavianum, which
contains the reference to Jesus Christ. He states the
resurrection as a matter of fact. A matter of record.

a) 3. (63) Now there was about this time Jesus, a wise man,
if it be lawful to call him a man; for he was a doer of
wonderful works, a teacher of such men as receive the
truth with pleasure. He drew over to him both many of
the Jews and many of the Gentiles. He was [the] Christ.
(64) And when Pilate, at the suggestion of the principal
men among us, had condemned him to the cross [2], those
that loved him at the first did not forsake him; for he
appeared to them alive again the third day [3], as the
divine prophets had foretold these and ten thousand other
wonderful things concerning him. And the tribe of Christians,
so named for him, are not extinct at this day.

2. Noted Author CS Lewis writes:

a) The Resurrection is the central theme in
every Christian sermon reported in the Acts.
The Resurrection and its consequences were the
“gospel” or good news which the Christians
brought: what we call the ‘gospels,’ the
narratives of Our Lord’s life and death, were
composed later for the benefit of those who
had already accepted the gospel. They were in
no sense the basis of Christianity: they were
written for those already converted. The
miracle of the Resurrection, and the theology
of that miracle, comes first: the biography
comes later as a comment on it. Nothing could
be more unhistorical than to pick out selected
sayings of Christ from the gospels and to
regard those as the datum and the rest of the
New Testament as a construction upon it. The
first fact in the history of Christendom is a
number of people who say they have seen the
Resurrection. (C.S. Lewis).

3. “In Search of the Historical Jesus” by Harvey King Mc Arthur —
presents powerful, and compelling evidence of the fact
that Jesus was a historical figure. Unfortunately, I
don’t have a copy, but your welcome to check it our of
any major library.

4. Josh McDowell — noted Christian Apologist has written
many books on the sub)subject of Christ in the Resurrection.
“Evidence that Demands a Verdict” and “A Ready Defense.”

B. These are sources apart from The bible.

V. Proof by Experience: .

A. The most powerful of all proofs of the resurrection, is the
power to change and transform lives. Perhaps two of the most
famous martyrs (from Foxes Book of Martyrs are Stephen and

B. Stephen. ,

1. Recall from Acts, the stoning of Stephen:

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a. But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to
heaven and saw he glory of God, and Jesus standing
at the right hand of God. (NIV)

“Look,” he said, “I see heaven open and the Son of
man standing at the right hand of God.” (Acts 7:55-
56 NIV)

b. Jesus wasn’t just sitting — he was standing!
Stephen had the experience of the transforming power
of the resurrection in his life.

2. Potycarp — an early Christian that lived under
emperor Marcus Aurelius — was about the be burned at the
stake sai:.

a) “Eighty and six years have I served him, and he
never once wronged me; how then shall I blaspheme
my King, Who hath saved me?”

a. See he had an experience with the Savior. They
told him to Deny His Christ. He said, “In 86 years,
he’s done me no harm! I’ll never deny my Christ!

b. What allowed him to experience a gruesome painful
death, but yet never deny his Lord? It took
an experience. A personal relationship with his
Savior. He knew the power of the resurrection to
be true in his life.

VI. Conclusion

A. Four proofs of the resurrection. Demonstrable proofs. But it
didn’t end in biblical days. The power of the Resurrection
is for us today. Through the ages, there have literally been
transformed millions of lives. Some in this very room. Lives
that would have otherwise been destroyed by drugs, alcohol,
or suicide — but because of an encounter, because of a
living relationship with Jesus Christ — we live —

B. “and because he lives — I can face tomorrow. Because He
lives — all fear is gone. Because I know — I know he holds
the future — and life is Worth the living, just because he

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Genetic Testing Results

Well —

I was staring to have a cheery day — when the Cardiologist told me I have: Factor V Leiden R506 (heterozygous)

What is that? It’s a genetic clotting disorder.

My head it spinning. I am upset.

When I was in the hospital in 2007, they gave me a shot of Lovenox (blood thinner) in the stomach, and I bled out and had to have 5 transfusions. They installed a vena cava filter instead.

The truly hard thing is, that this was known in June, 2007 when I was in the hospital for a month, but they did NOT tell me till today. (2 YEARS after the fact!)

It’s hard.